I guess? Hurray. F

(our shitcoin overlords)

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I’ve always wanted to sing. More than anything, I’ve wanted to write songs. I wish I didn’t have so much dysphoria around my voice. I wish I could have sung more when I was younger, and when I was studying choral music in college. I’ve had this block around singing because I feel so disconnected from my voice. And I’ve been making music, and mixing records, for years — so my ears have improved a bunch, and I can hear pitch & intonation pretty well I think, but I still don’t have the control over my voice I would like to have — so intonation while I’m singing is difficult, but I can always hear how off-pitch I am when I listen to recordings of my voice. If I hadn’t had such a huge amount of shame around my voice when I was younger, I would have been able to develop that sense of pitch years ago. Like learning a new language, it’s way harder to get yr sense of pitch locked in when yr an adult. Being trans sucks in a zillion ways. At least I can hit some low notes I guess? Hurray. Fuck.

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singing

is free

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living
continuing

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I bought bras on the internet. Who am I going to send nudes to when I start getting boobs? You?