i have (i guess) lived i guess

so in my ridiculous audio archive i found a 40 minute recording of me working on a song in 2011, and it’s just me playing weird kinda dissonant guitar, screaming about how good fela kuti is

i am so confused by wha t is this life that i have (i guess) lived i guess

there is so much shit here
and it makes me feel like
i’ve lived a lot of life

there’s always been
a woman in my heart that
has been trying to get me
to grow up to become
her. 
All of the shit that I put
her through — she fought
against it, and she won

every single thing
the coinstar
the toddler in the toy car
the rain in my shoe
makes me think of you

crying

in the

grocery

store parking

lot

oh

well.

i don’t belong here, i don’t belong anywhere