I think the only time I've ever really been happy in my life was the couple of months I spent living in my van and traveling around. I don't know what to do with that feeling.

#26 Synthesizer Self-Care

Two hours of synth & drum machines recorded on cassettes. I enumerate some of the good things that happened to me in 2016 and discuss my plans for upcoming projects. As the episode wraps up, I reveal something about myself that I've kept private my whole life.

Who's There?

I'm lonely . U told me Stay Positive. It's All Good. u Live & Learn. Be Happy Even Tho The Bulls*. You Grow From It. U made me lonelier, I'm still holding that bummer you gave me in my tiny 24 y/o soul.


I want to Travel to the American Desert where I can look around with wonder & the red dirt is magic. I go home and smell it in an envelope. Friends probably dead. Family is dead. Soul feeling dead.